Saturday, November 29, 2008

Mission Impossible

I enjoyed Thanksgiving day with my family. We went to my sister Lynn's beautiful lake home. My parents were there and two of my sisters kids made it home. The food was great and I felt sick by the time I got home. Two of my sisters did not come and I wish we could have all been together. I am really missing my husband, it seems I am worse as the months go by! Work has been difficult and there is no one here to share that with when I get home. I was off yesterday so I did mega cleaning. The mission is to get this hell hole cleaned up and get the Christmas decorating done before Monday. I was scrubbing floors and rearranging furniture till 10 pm last night. I am ready to roll today as soon as my body wakes up! I have to drag 700 boxes down from upstairs. Normally my youngest son would be around to help, but since he does not live at home anymore, I can't be waiting till he shows up to do it! I will soon put on the Christmas music and I will be singing and dancing around the house as I get into the Holiday spirit. It isn't as much fun doing it all alone, but it will cheer me up. I love Christmas music and the best part I know all the words to every song. If I dance to much my dog will attack me, he plays really rough! I miss the kids be little and helping out! I haven't had the time to read any of your blogs for awhile. I must admit I really miss that! What the heck, I miss my blogging buddies. I just have been getting home late and going to bed. I hope things will improve at work and I will be able to get back into my normal routine.
My new job is beyond words, and I have never in my 50 plus years of life experienced anything like this before!!


Winifred said...

Glad you had a good holiday.

A friend of mine lost her husband a while back and thought that once she got to the first anniversary the worst would be over but in her case it wasn't so. Everyone is different and sometimes it takes a while for it to sink in.

I'm glad you're enjoying your job. The challenge will take up a lot of your energy. You're amazing to be looking forward to Christmas so much. After I lost my Mam I just wanted Christmas to pass me by for a few years. I'm fine once I get to Chrismas Eve as I love it too. It just brings back so many memories. Your photo of your family last Christmas was a lovely one so you have some great memories too.

Take care and don't worry about Blogging. It will all be here when you come back.

Look after yourself.

Jim said...

Holidays are rough when a person is alone after being married for a long spell. That works with divorced too unless it was so terrible that to be alone is a celebration.

I am glad you had relatives to visit and am also sorry that all the sisters couldn't get together. I have no idea if you could drive where they are soon or not.

We are too old to decorate much. This year the tree is up waiting for more decorations and the fireplace mantel has stockings hung, garland, candles, etc.
All of that came from our friend who died of cancer this summer.

Hang in there with the job. Jobs come in handy right now. Besides your management has a lot of faith in you as a trouble shooter and put things back together person.

Ralph said...

Don't dance to much - those dogs sounds like they mean business.
Stop in when you can and don't worry about it when you can't. We all go through spells. Things will settle down.

Granny Annie said...

You'll be fine because you manage to go above and beyond the expected. I'm sure that doesn't make it any esier, but at least a lot of us believe in your strength and are especially pulling for you this holiday season.

Ramblings of a Villas Girl said...

Hi Marla! I am glad you had a good holiday and were with family.
It is always hard around the holiday's, but just take one day at a time. Sing and dance your heart out. Take care. Lisa

Jamie Dawn said...

Life gets very hectic sometimes, so you just keep plugging along at work and hopefully things will slow down before long.
I have lost loved ones that I was very close to, especially my beloved Gramilo, and I know how hard it is to face holidays without them. When my Gramilo was dying, I was beside myself with grief wondering how I would manage life without her in it.
Losing your husband has got to be the hardest thing ever besides losing a child. I am thankful to have both parents living, and to not have had the loss of a spouse or child. I am so sorry for the sadness you feel every day, and especially on holidays as you face them without your dear husband.
Turn up that Christmas music and sing and dance to your heart's content. The dog will go nuts!
I hope your holiday season is joyous and that your memories are sweet and bring you comfort.

Sue said...

Remember the good times and enjoy the grandkids. They do grow up way too fast.

Greg C said...

I am sorry that you are having to deal with this. That Christmas music shoudl cheer you up. It does the same thing for me. I have been singing in the car lately and getting a lot of strange looks.

possum said...

I do know exactly where you are coming from... but, in time, it does get easier... getting thru that first year and first time for everything... You are lucky you have family near by. I have made myself a sign from time to time - when I have to remind myself - THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
Hang in there...

Scarlet said...

Marla, if you only lived closer, I'd be there helping you with those 700 boxes and I'd dance around the house to Christmas songs with your killer dog on my heels.

Remember, we're here for you. You know where to find us.

God bless...and I'll be praying for you tonight.

Nadine said...

I'm with Scarlet - I would so be there with you to help you decorate. I pray that things at your work get better and settled.

Lucy Stern said...

The first year is the hardest....You miss having him around on each holiday and it is really hard....Time will heal!

Glad you were able to be with your family on Thanksgiving. Christmas, this year, is going to be a little tough. Bonnie will be working out of town for three weeks and Jennifer, Justin and the grandkids will be in Florida visiting the Grandparents/great grandparents. William will be the only one to come home. At least we will be able to see my side of the family in the evening. It is so hard when the kids grow up and go their own way.

Here's hoping that you have a great Christmas....

Janell said...

Keep singing and dancing! (You might want to put that dog out first).

I love the Christmas carols, too. The music is one of my favorite things about this time of year. I don't decorate much because in myhouse, things get lost in the clutter.

Keep up the good work at your new job.

And no matter what you're facing, remember Joshua 1:9!

Chatty Kelly said...

**Off topic** I saw your question on Greg's blog about the trash can. Every one has a trash can beside their own comment (and no one elses). That is so if you have a typo or said something in error, you can delete your comment by hitting the trash can. No one can see your trash can, except you. Isn't blogger cool?

My ADHD Me said...

Hi. I saw your comment on Chatty Kelly's blog and just wanted to pop in and say hi. I am Chatty Kelly's sister.
I have a blog but it isn't anything like Kelly's. It is just random things from the top of my ADHD head. It won't help you spiritually (I leave that to Kelly as she is so much better at it than I am), but maybe it will put a smile on your face.
But mainly, I just wanted to let you know that I said a prayer for you and your family.

Edie said...

Hi Marla. I came over from Chatty Kelly's too. First I want to correct what ADHD-Jo said. She has an incredible healing heart ministry, she just doesn't know it. "A cheerful heart is good medicine." Reading her blog will make you laugh your socks off most of the time and you will also find some fun banter in her comments section. She has done much to heal my heart.

You have a wonderful group of supportive bloggy friends who will be here for you and most importantly a Wonderful God who will Never leave you.

My dog used to bark and lunge at me when I would start dancing around the house. She finally got passed it. Now she just looks at me funny. LOL.

One more thing. You might be interested in checking out Hope for the Heart Ministry. I've heard June Hunt speak many times on the healing process that you are going through. Just if you want.

Sorry this is so long. Rich Blessings to you.

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